I just read an excellent post ( a bit long but well worth it) written by Adrian Warnock, called, "I Don't Want Balance, I Want It All!". It was full of questions, questions that I think most any Christian can well relate too.
There were some great comments, but one thing that stood out to me was a great fear of being wrong. So many of us are all too willing to risk losing out on the experience side as long as we feel secure in our having 'right' doctrine. We feel that it's somehow more respectable to be right and proper theologically than it is to a have dynamic living relationship with our Creator through the person of the Holy Spirit in us. And it is more respectable--to people. But how does God feel about it all? I believe he's grieved by our eagerness to please and impress others at the expense of truly knowing him. And as I've said before, fear of man is quite often related to legalism, as we should expect. We know that our performance does not impress God, so we can only really ever aspire to please men in our legalistic endeavors.
One thing that has been bothering me as I've listened to person after person, preacher after preacher, defend using a 'little law' in some way as believers, is the strong sense I get that they neither know or trust the Spirit of God. They (and I) bring in laws, rules, regulations, or, more subtly known as, guidelines, principles, advice, suggestions...where we don't believe the power of God can bring change or help. Let's be honest about this, if we truly live by the Spirit, who is constantly with us and guiding us, teaching us, speaking to us, then why do we need 'guidelines'? We don't! Guidelines come in and tell us we don't need the Spirit so much, because if we have guidelines, why do we need a Guide?
We have turned the Christian life into a self-guided tour. We take our book, our precious map, and thumb through the pages looking to see which way we should go. We miss the point of our Book! It hasn't been given to us to make our Father's job 'easier', now he doesn't have to actually be with us or speak to us, it's been given as a gift that he opens up and reads to us and explains what it means and helps us with every day of our lives. The Bible was meant to deepen our fellowship with the Spirit and show us Christ and teach us who our Father is, not replace the one who gave it!
I refuse to give in to fear and unbelief. I don't care how 'safe' it is,I'm tired of packaged religion. Just give me God!