It's funny how in today's online world how we can be aware of people and places we would have long forgotten otherwise. I have links to much of my past, casual links, but almost daily reminders of where I've been. There are people I've known almost my whole life, leaders I admired as a child or teen, the truly serious Christians. They are passionate, radical, and outspoken. They are generally well-liked in their circles. I like them too. But sometimes I think "how tired they must be!". I can't imagine being a serious Christian for 20, 30, or more years, I know I couldn't do it and besides that, I have absolutely no desire to. I only tried my hand at it for 20 years or so, of course I started very young, but even for a young person it was tiring.
Today I'm a Christian still, but more because I can't stop being one (if your definition of a Christian is someone who believes in Jesus, that he is God, that he came in the flesh, lived and died to give us eternal life for free). I can't stop believing in Jesus, it comes natural to me these days, pretty easy, simple and uncomplicated. Some people hate this kind of faith, they don't think it's good enough or something. They want to condemn me, mock me, or just dismiss me altogether. That's ok. I've traded in my serious Christianity for something much more joyful and restful. I feel free. This flesh is not perfect and never will be but my spirit is alive with Jesus, completely righteous, completely FREE. I wish everyone would be free!